BLIND OR BLUFF?

I am not seeing what others are seeing. I’m in an acting class, which I love, it’s basically a scene study, contemporary American theatre, and I love it, and the teacher/ director is brilliant and wonderful but when I am working, doing my best to be “natural”, in the moment”, to be listening, and reacting” I am not seeing what others see in me. And okay, yeah, I’m not seeing me, but when my classmates tell me how great the scene is, and my part in particular, I have no clue WHY! Oh, listen to me whine. Who gives a shit? I should be happy Im not getting booed. But I wish I knew what others see. If only to feel a little less like a hack. I know I’m talented. But the same can be said of thousands, of hundreds of thousands of actors- what makes me special? Whine whine whine. Bitch bitch bitch. Everyone is welcome to my pathetic pity party. :)